you can try to hold the breeze

surgery didn't go without its fair share of complications. my body just likes to be difficult and put up a fight. i had some pretty rough reactions to the medications, and as a result i became very weak and dehydrated, and ended up feeling pretty miserable for about a week. but now i'm back on my feet and basically functioning as normal. except my mouth still hurts.

today i took the OAT (optometry admissions test). it comprised of me sitting in a sterile cubicle and staring at a computer screen for four hours, answering questions about biology, organic and inorganic chemistry, physics, mathematics, and general reading comprehension. it was very draining. hopefully my score will be good enough to get me accepted to an optometry school. here's to hoping for the best.

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it's only a paper moon

I'm going in for surgery today to get my wisdom teeth removed. I am not looking forward to it much, but I guess at least once I have it done it will be over, and I shouldn't have to worry about my wisdom teeth beyond then. Right?...

Most I just worry about being completely anesthetized. Last time I had oral surgery, I had a some weird reaction to the drugs and I started punching and kicking into the air, and inadvertently hit some doctors and nurses in the process. While I find that kind of amusing in my own twisted sense of humor, I also note that I was a lot younger then and a lot less powerful. If I started throwing punches today, somebody's bound to get hurt. Last time, I was the only one who really got hurt: I had bruises all over my body from the restraints they had to use and from the IV wriggling all over my arm.

I might pass out when I see them put in the IV needle. I'm such a baby about these sorts of things.

In all honesty, it should probably go fairly smoothly, and I'll just be drugged up for several days and have cheeks like a chipmunk. I'm still not exactly sure what I'll even be able to eat...

Well, here's to hoping for the best.

i wanted you to feel the same

back from kville. it was a very lazy weekend, and i was a little bit of a brat during the beginning of the trip, but once i settled down and started feeling comfortable then things were smooth. basically i just watched a lot of curb your enthusiasm, a few movies, and watched my boyfriend play zelda. nothing too extravagant or adventurous, but i wasn't really looking for much. i just needed an escape from my hometown and the stress of work.

i watched inception on saturday. chirstopher nolan is a pretty great director (i definitely recommend "memento", for anyone interested), and inception is practically five stories in one. the scenes are vivid and the lighting is so perfect, and the acting is also phenomenal. there's a pretty sweet fight scene, also, that takes place in a hallway that is rotating and rolling in space. pretty crazy, but it looks fantastic. the plot was also brilliant. so, in other words, i feel like inception lives up to most of the hype i've been hearing. i heard some complaints that it was a little confusing to follow, but i didn't think i had any trouble. of course, this is coming from someone who frequently watches david lynch movies and absolutely loves them (check out "blue velvet"...seriously).

well, i guess it's back to work as usual. i leave for brno in less than a month. i'm getting more anxious about it as the date approaches. eventually i'm going to have that sickening realization moment of "this may be the last time i see this person for a long time". i'm not looking forward to it.

such a white planet

well, i'm preparing to head out of town again. venturing back to kville. i just can't keep away.

in other news, i just baked two pecan pies and completed a great deal of house chores. i'm feeling relatively domestic. i'm planning to take one pie to work, and the other to the boyfriend. i believe he might enjoy a little something sweet.

speaking of work, it's been a little hectic lately. i've been handling the patients a little bit more directly since we're somewhat short-staffed at the moment, and i've also been picking up on the slack that randomly occurs throughout the office. mostly it's just dull tasks like sorting files, pulling charts, or calling patients to remind them of their upcoming appointments. still, i'm working 11 hour days and i'm not used to having to interact with people for such long periods of time. i suppose i should get used to it if i'm considering this as a career. i really believe i am getting a lot better about it.

my boss is also putting a lot of pressure on me at the moment when it comes to optometry schools and my future. he's offered me a position at his office should i decide to stay for the year and work rather than go abroad, if i get accepted to school for the fall 2011 semester. it's really tempting, and it stresses me out a little. lately, i've really been wanting to take him up on his offer. i wish i could just know if i've been accepted right now.